What do I want to say?
I'm sorry

But this leads to another issue. If I am to move to another there needs to be resolve with the previous. That would be hard. I would be in no state to be with the new while dealing with the loss of the old.

What do I want to say?
Sorry I did not choose your side last time. I was hurt and I took the easy choice.

How am I to work towards a better future when I don't know what's happening?

What do I want? What can they other offer? What do I expect. What can I offer? What do they want?

Do I want something quick or do I want something solid?

My heart aches.

I want a long term relationship. But that is not built overnight. It is something developed over time. But at some point there is a agreement, commitment, to make it happen. Do I work towards building that commitment or is it something that should happen naturally?

What did I not like last time? What can I do to make things better this time?

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